I am currently taking 17 credits. I have Intermediate Algebra, English 101, Music Appreciation, Health and Wellness, and Fundamentals of Education and the Field Study class that goes with it. They are all online classes except the Field Study class (it's one hour on Monday and several hours a week in a classroom) so I'm still home with my kids but instead of blogging all day, I'm studying. I haven't worked my brain this hard in years and it's just the first week.
I'm not sure why I thought I could do this. I've only broken out in tears twice (each day) so far. It's just all so foreign to me. They didn't even have the internet when I was last in school. We had to go to class and stare at the white pull-down canvas at the front of the room that was covered in BoxElder bugs (I went to Utah State). The lecture was done on an overhead projector. I remember when Ken came home from school and talked about this new thing called email and the World Wide Web. It all blew my mind. I couldn't even get my mind around what he was talking about. Then we moved to BYU and bought a real computer, got hooked up to the Ethernet, and I watched over his shoulder as he did research online and made class presentations using Power Point.
Ken gave his yearly back-to-school father's blessings to the kids on Sunday. I told him I was starting school on Monday also. He just laughed at me. I'm not sure that he realized how serious I really was. I'm scared to death! I'm just asking my teachers lots and lots of questions and making lots and lots of mistakes. (I hope they are patient!) I had to turn in an English paper to confirm correct placement. I submitted it in the wrong format. I've never even heard of MLA but now I know all about it and I'll turn the next one in correctly. Ken, who is an English graduate, started to read my paper and after completely tearing apart my first two sentences, I left the room in tears and he kindly closed the paper and didn't finish reading it. (I haven't heard back yet if she thinks I'm in the right class yet so I'm still crossing my fingers.) I just keep telling myself that "I'm learning!" and it's good to "DO HARD THINGS!" I'll figure it out. I'm determined! Next week will be a better week.
For now, tomorrow is Friday and it's our county fair this weekend so I'm going to go to the rodeo, ride the carnival rides, eat lots of greasy fair food, look at all the craft entry's (my favorite), enter all the free give aways and fill my lungs with the sweet, clean air of animals, dirt, and this great community of Twin Falls, ID that I call home!
