Saturday I woke up with a migraine and that set my day off bad. We were supposed to clean the church as a ward but Ken was called into work that morning so I was on my own. I got up, took some medicine and went right back to bed. I finally took the boys over to help for an hour while I came back home to try to pull my day together. My house was a mess and so I made the kids work the rest of the day. My house is really clean but what happened to all the great quality family time I had envisioned. As Ken took me out last night on our day-after-pay-day grocery shopping date, I told him that I couldn't do this anymore. I'm going to have to go back onto my depression medicine. I'm just not strong enough to pull it together on my own. I have to admit that I feel like I've failed!
To add to my grouchiness, I got my hair cut on Thursday and I feel scalped! This is the picture that keeps coming to my mind when I think about what my hair looks like.
Okay, mine is a little longer than this but not much! I haven't had it this short in several years and I guess I just realized how vain and self-centered I really am. I really just like to hide behind my long hair. Shaelynne said to me, "Oh no! You are not my mom!" Kate said, "You just need to wear lots of make-up and pretty clothes so no one looks at your hair." Alexys said, "I guess family pictures are off!" Ken said, "Why is it that no one ever cuts your hair right?" I answer was, "Maybe it's not the hairstylists fault."I had a friend once say that when we feel picked on or mistreated, we are probably picking on or mistreating someone else. My poor family! The thing that really disturbs me is that I can survive all the crap we have dealt with this last year with Ken's family but a silly hair cut flips me out.
Don't you just love self-portraits? Oh well, now you can see my problem.
This is not a sympathy post. I just hate realizing how self-centered I really am. The fact that I have behaved so badly to my children the last few days, just proves to me that I really am a brat!
Also, why do I always have headaches? GRRR!
11 comments:
It's a cute haircut, Laurie!! I don't know what you are so bugged about....
I haven't talked to you in awhile. Call me sometime!
Can't help you with the headache problem, but I am right there with you on the being a grouch to my kids. Hang in there, as my mom-in-law keeps telling me "This to shall pass", though being told that sometimes makes me grouchier. Personally I like your hair and I am not just saying that to be nice. But since you don't just remember it will grow out again.
Email me, or call me and I will help you with you math! Please! It is one of the things I can do for you!
I know what you mean about the weekend though. I have stopped trying to plan any great family time. I end up disappointed and frustrated that we are all going in different directions. I just try to make it happen spontaneously in the few moments we get together.
I LIKE your hair. It looks very flattering on you! You family is just in shock because it is a change. They will adjust.
I wish I could come and visit you and teach your math class and just give you a hug! So, seriously, CALL ME and I will totally help you with your math!
Laurie, you're still so beautiful. Or maybe you just posted really good pictures of you. I mean it's good we have you in the family because you're the prettiest. Even if you have a bad hair do you're still have a beautiful face. You may not want to post this or the othe people in the family will get mad at me. But it's true. Thanks for always being a good example to me. And don't worry about your school or failing. You didn't fail in life. I mean everyone in the world has problems. No one is exempt. It's the ones who stand up everytime they fall that succeed in life. Even people who succeed in life have had to overcome something. Just different classes of problems. Just stand a little taller everytime you fall. Because you will fall. It's inevitable and your not done. Just laugh more often when you do fail. I mean your bangs do look a little funny. But your still beautiful. How many other people could pull that off? I think your the best no matter what anyone else says or what you do. Your my sister for forever.
Oh, I hope you're feeling better soon! I have typed several things here trying to express my empathies to you but nothing is coming out right...but just know that I've been thinking about you! And I've also been thinking about your kids who are struggling in school and wishing I could run over and help (that's the teacher in me)...but since I live across the country it's a little hard to do! Anyway, I'm just typing a garbled mess here but know that you are being thought of and loved!
Ok, I think your hair looks adorable! But, I agree that a perceived bad hair cut can ruin your mood for days. Mine has reached the point where it needs some help and I can't justify paying for a cut.
And, everyone has good weeks and bad weeks. It just happens. And, sometimes it seems to happen all at once. You can do this! I know you can!!!
I agree, it looks good. But it is frustrating to have a cut you don't like until it grows a bit. When I cut mine to my shoulders, Connor told me that I didn't look like a mommy any more. OUCH!!
I think your haircut looks great on you!! But I also know how it feels when you don't like your own haircut. It never really matters what anyone else says if your not comfortable with it. So I can totally feel your pain. Ask me sometime about my OLD IDAHO MOM haircut. But just know I am very impressed with all you do in school, with your kids and on the domestic front. I could never hope to accomplish all things you do. So I think you deserve a little AHHHH moment!! Side note I have a sister who also gets really bad migraines related to her cycle and she has seen a nuerologist(spelling??) and got some easy sound advice. Call me to discuss!!
I think your hair is cute, and I wish I would have seen it on Sunday! Keep your chin up and remember you are worth it! You're awesome, and you'll make it!
My baby just woke up so that means my computer time is up too! Your hair looks super healthy! I like the cut and I think you will like it even more in a week or two when your bangs are a litte longer. YOU and self centered should never even be in the same sentence! With that cut (I had it about 6 months ago) you should pick up some pomade. I just used got2b from Target. Put a tiny bit on your fingers and thumb and pull small pieces of your hair through it. It makes the layers stand out and always made me feel more finished.
Hey Cuz,
I have been having terrible headaches too and I am attributing them to homeshooling... I am not a good teacher or mom anymore... I find myself yelling at my kids and then THEY turn around and hug me... why do they still love me is the question I ask myself daily. Honestly I think why I am so cranky all the time is that I gained way too much weight with my last pregnancy and never have any time to exercise and then I just plain choose to eat all the stuff that doesn't help the whole weight loss issue. You however have had 6 children and you still look awesome - what is your secret?
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