Dodging a Memoir tag....for now

A long, long time ago, I was tagged by Carrie. I was to do my own 6 word memoir.

This has proven to be a really hard tag for me to do because it means that I have to think about myself and, while some of you may find this hard to believe, this is a really hard thing for me to do. I don't really like who I am right now. I still am not ready to do this tag, but I think about it often, and someday I will do it.

I have a lot of guilt. I feel guilty for the things I don't do. I feel guilty for the things I do do. My goal is to learn to live my life guilt-free.

This doesn't mean I want to ignore my conscience and not care about my choices. It just means that I want to be okay with who I am and not feel the need to justify or apologize for my actions and choices to anyone, especially to me. I really am my hardest critic and I want to change that around and become my biggest fan. I don't know how though.

When I was a child, I dreamed of all the wonderful things I would do when I grew up. I would be kind and spiritual and strong. I would be confident and brave and smart. If I get the chance to live a long life, then my life is almost half over. It not, then I have even less time and honestly, at this point in my life, I wouldn't use any of those words to describe myself.

Am I where I want to be right now?
Do I know where I want to go from here?
Am I even headed in the right direction?

I woke up the other night with the Serenity Prayer going through my head. OKAY, actually, I was dreaming about shopping and the poem went something more like this,
Grant me the serenity to buy what is needed,
the courage to not buy what is not needed,
and the wisdom to know the difference.
(Please tell me I'm not the only one with this problem!)

After I woke up enough to figure out that I was making that one up, my thoughts turned to the original serenity prayer, which I absolutely love. I think it gives me the hope that I can change and become better.

God grant me the Serenity to

accept the things I cannot change;

Courage to change the things I can;

and Wisdom to know the difference.


I have often solved my problems by taking the Scarlett O'Hara from Gone With the Wind approach, "I can't think about that right now. If I do, I'll go crazy. I'll think about that tomorrow."

Today, I am Marion Paroo, the Librarian from Music Man and Professor Harold Hill keeps telling me,

"You pile up enough tomorrows and you'll find you have nothing but a bunch of empty yesterdays."

So, tomorrow maybe my 6 word memoir will be something great and amazing, but as for today, well, I'm trying to figure out how to work out all my kinks. And when I stop looking at myself and look at all the good that surrounds me, I'm not in too bad of shape after all.

What about you? Do you have a 6 word memoir?

(Okay, what I'm really dying to know is: Do you have any old movie quotes taking over your brain?)