
Friday morning...I hear the door quietly close, I roll over, look at the clock. It's 7:13, dang! I missed them. At least it's the last day of school for the kids this year! Hooray! Another year done!
I have to confess that I was a horrible mother this year. I struggled to just hold it all together let alone pull anything together. I'm not sure what happened but I quit my mom job. I seemed to focus only on completing my school assignments each day, nothing else.
I have amazing children. Let me tell you how amazing they really are:
1. The older 4 woke themselves up each morning.
2. They made their own breakfast.
3. They fixed their own hair.
4. They prepared their own cold lunch each day.
5. They got themselves on the bus...alone.
What was I doing every morning? Sleeping!
I have never been so tired in my entire life!
I feel like I'm sitting on the sidelines watching my life pass me by. I'm my own biggest critic, yet I don't even know where to start to change.
I have been working with my doctor to figure out what my problem is. We've tried many different things, done several tests, and tried to simplify as much as possible.
I am doing a few simple things, since basically there is nothing wrong with me. I don't know if anything is working...I'm still here and still doing nothing.
For now, I put on a smile, feel gratitude for the amazing children and husband that I have been blessed with, and survive another day....
At least I don't have to feel guilty for a few months that I slept in and missed seeing the kids off....again!